the ongoing journey

a delayed post (3 Dec):

.the Senandung Malam.

mama and me took a train back to KL from JB at 9.15pm just now. the old train and the long journey reminds me a lot of those days travelling back to singapore with abang and mama when i was 4, and showed how things has changed much nowadays; how i've changed.

the ample time i have in the train makes me think a lot...

"same date, same time next year, where would i be? what would i do? who would i be?

what about 10 years later? how much it differs from 10 years ago?"

worried how scary the future might be. i suddenly thought of the final exam that ended few weeks ago, wondering where would it lead me to. just as i thought i've done my best, my mind came to think of how i've been just the average in everything that i do, how i've picked up things and threw it out the window and so as the things i thought i'll be doing in my life tomorrow - will i ever get it done to the last bit? and thinking back on how things turned out the opposite, makes reality is even scarier to be imagined.

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college days has ended, i'm now at the end of the road i took last year. it was one of the roads not taken, not many took the same path as i did. it was tough but i survived! and regrets? "i've had a few but then again, too few to mention" ^_^

i'm still thinking where i'll be heading next. there has been a lot of IFs occuring in life recently. i want the list to end here. it have to!!

if i were to take the next road not taken, i hope there'll be no regrets awaits me at the end of the journey...and shall be telling everyone, how exciting it was.


p/s: i sounded melancholy...OMG! what had gotten into me! =P