to: kawan-kawan ku ^___^

came across this song a few minutes ago. sedih. T_T

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways

If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you

Forever baby, I'll remember you

[i'll remember you - no secrets]

gosh, i really miss u guys!

insignificant to me OK!

i just thought the lyric was kinda meaningful haha

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what i was trying to do.

[Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most]

14) the very busy week

.Hani's study.

Monday 11/5 - i came to uni a little late as i was on Dynamics assignment that due at 3pm of the day. then there was Physics lab again at 3pm, the 7th lab. was about Snell's law. the experiment was kinda easy but i screwed pre-labs, owh! and my lab partner came in 50mins late, he said. i say it was an hour late haha luckily the other 2 guys were nice enough to let me join them and even nicer for making things easy for me by just sitting there waiting for the results haha then Dooley came in and did the same thing; waiting for me to pass him the results. owh and he kept apologizing for being late haha anyway i felt sorry for him everytime he asked me about the conclusion hee i never let him read mine, i reckon he'd laugh. i don't mean being kedekut ilmu OK, just hope u got that right. owh and did i tell u he's now on my facebook ahaha it's already the 7th time we did physics experiments together and only now i know the lab partner's name haha

.Dooley's wall post haha.
it's clearer if u click on it

Tuesday 12/5 - was that day everything went wrong haha
1) my watch ran out of battery, luckily i've got two
2) my bike has got flat tyres and i think it needs a tube change, owh! and so i took Radhiah's bike
then i thought of going to Kong's after class since i've to cook dinner today
3) i left my wallet at home, so no Kong's. masak la kau ape yang ada kat rumah tu! tidaak!
and then i just realized that i had to leave the bike in uni for Radhiah to cycle back with Fatin.
and so i walk to the bus stop and
4) i did not bring my smartrider!! and no money to pay for the bus fare! OMG!!
and so i ended up walking back home. huh!
no Versace.

.study!.
electronics huh! and red sweater faulkie 07 aha!

Wednesday 13/5 - Electronics test and its 3 hours lab. penat gile! and plus, we had to redo our lab due to system error and some not so helpful lab instructors! the day was soo tiring that i didn't get to stay up for long to study Physics. and no Versace again.

Thursday 14/5 - "another no show" haha maybe Versace changed lecture. OK enough of that...that night around 6.30pm after dinner when the sky was already very dark, Radhiah, Fatin and me went to uni. they both wanted to do thier Econs assignment and our house internet just not helping. and i, i went there for fun! haha uni at night was really cool. there were lots people at James O' playing some sports i wish i could join heh naah, dream on, they didn't even approve me joining UEC though i'm a part of the engineering faculty. enough said.

.study lagi!.
at Reid, and i was bored reading Physics

we went back home at 1am haha and it was around 14°C i guess, and yes, we cycle! btw, cycling pass thru the sprinklers was fun and i now realized how much UWA waste water ahaha

Friday 15/5 - since i came to uni just for Physics test, so no Versace again ahahaha probably his was at Ross not Clews where mine was.

.dan lagi!.
penat and trying to be creative in reading
so i wouldn't yawn haha

and that nite we hang out at uni again. it was great having dinner at Riley O' (as in we brought our own lunch pack, i mean dinner pack) haha that was F-U-N!! i suggest u should try at least once while u're in uni haha

Saturday 16/5 - we (Radhiah, Fatin, and me) hang out the whole day, but not in uni OK haha we went to Innaloo and then to Northbridge.

finally sampai jugak Perth mosque.
and makan something like ice-cream kat kedai!

turning 19

dah lama gila tak update blog!!

and not sure whether or not am able to update it frequently in the future. final semester exam's coming; got Maths, Mechanics, EE, and Physics to cover. owh! i've to be really rajin after this,
i will, i janji!

this was what i've got on my mind on the 6th May, but i haven't got the time on that day. owh and days later too due to piles of assignments and tests, huh! still got Calculus next week. just give me some time to babble a bit here before i start on that alright!

so that day was just another day, another normal Wednesday but with Calculus test very early in the morning!! and the nite before was just me and the 1964 Calculus book, booooring!!
right after Calculus test that went quite well i hope, i went straight home, and mumble to myself along the way, why today has to be so not special, full of nothing-ness?!
plus, i didn't get to see Versace ahahaha because i skipped EE and Mechanics - need some sleep, was up till late last nite preparing for the test.

i cancelled my plans to buy a cake at Subi or maybe Victoria Park. i'm just too lazy to take the bus and buy my own cake, how sedeh~ haha anyhow i know my housemates were up to something hahahahaha because:
#1: nobody in the house wishes me at all! though it was soo obvious in facebook they were notified bout people wishing me.
#2: i think i overheard something haha sorry, i didn't do that on purpose. i mean, well, who would want to spoil a surprise especially when it's their's? aha! and plus u know i hang around u guys almost everytime, so i pretty well knew how is that when u guys were trying to hide something ^_^ and that kinda show as well..
#3: the call Radhiah made, saying the bag i wanted was already out of stock. so what's that for if it wasn't telling the fact that she's looking for that bag probably..for me? huhu
#4: lastly, that try-to-buat-buduh thing just seems fishy to me hee

but yeah, tak kan nak tanya kan. like, are you guys planning a surprise for me? that's utterly stupid OK. so i continue with the super plain day that was suppose to be special ahaha
then i thought of cooking seaweed soup like in those Korean movies, they cook that on birthdays nyahaha pethatic u Hani, pethatic!
then i replied some comments on facebook
then...i swear to u this list is getting booooooorrrrrriinnngg!!
then i played mario till it was game over and i freaked out why does that mario have to fall off the cliff and got me a great big 'game over' sign popped out on my laptop screen with some irritating sound. ah! and now i'm back to BORED again!
then yes, luckily microsoft has solitaire! omg, see how bored i was?
then, it was the best ever, i slept the whole long afternoon with that regret - i should've went to lecture, at least there's Versace. well, i won't get him in Lectopia [online lecture] obviously aha!

not long after i woke up [it was dark outside!!], Radhiah came to my room and told me that Daniel and Vale was at our front lawn with a cake and some few things. and i was, whee!
thanx a million u both! the ice-cream cake was nice, really! and thanx for Jiliby, Dan!
and this one too, i knew Vale & Dan are coming [i sounded like i've some premonition powers ahaha] just not what the plans are. apart from eavesdropping again, i heard it very clear Dan said "see u later" which was not like other days that he would say "see u tomorrow" haha particular i am, isn't it? u never thought i'd realized that didn't u Dan?

.the ice-cream cake & Jiliby.

not long after Dan & Vale went back with the TV they took at our neighbour's front lawn haha, Radhiah came rushingly to my room again telling me that Pedram [the landlord's son] came to collect this month's house rent when i was busy talking to Ana and Timey that was suspiciously sitting in my room for a chat. huh! OK, so i was tricked!!! so they pulled me to the living room and there was the surprise; the big choc cake with the big 19 candle, pizza, pide, and some chips. owh and my mum on Skype. and then there was Amal later on, via Skype as well. thanx a trillion guys, sayang u all!

.housemates dearie.

i didn't realize that Pedram thing was part of the plan, ceh! u guys got me!
and no wonder Ana and Timey was in my room before that and never let me stop talking.
and Radhiah said Timey & her wanted to use the living room that nite to discuss some Asian Business stuff. but the Fatin wanted to watch Master Chef wasn't in the plan haha

11++pm that nite, Radhiah, Fatin and me sat outside the house in the cold [well, that has become our routine since then haha sometimes with laptops and hot coffee, sometimes just us and the sweater]. and then poof! the was a bag, in front of me. thanx again u both, i love it though it's not that Nica bag i wanted hee i love this one just the same =p

and let's call it a day. another memorable one.

owh and Kalor came a few days later
thanx! though it didn't paint my wish hahahaha

will be uploading the pictures to Picasa when i have the time alright ^_^

"macam tu la kawan.."

my watch ran out of battery this morning, so i took the other one with the dangling keys on it in the box. then i slipped in the wooden bracelet on to my left hand like everyday. the two things doesn't look quite match to each other. but i'm used to it there, i won't take it off.

then Radhiah told me,

"dah biasa kan ada tu kat tangan? macam tu lah kawan.
kalau tiba-tiba tak ada rasa lain"

true. very true indeed.
then i would never want to lose any that i have.
i don't want to feel the lost and never want the awkward.


p/s: i won't run away because of some decision u thought i couldn't take. i wouldn't mind!
whatever makes u happy, would make me. i swear! ^__^

epilogue kot

And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine
Don’t worry about this heart of mine
Just, take your love and hit the road..

There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just, leave the pieces when you go...

the wreckers - leave the pieces

menurut mimpi or bayangan separuh sedar tu..

i wrote this on a piece of paper..
__________________________________________

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him her win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Jesse McCartney: Just So You Know]
__________________________________________

hand it.

"bagi aku masa untuk lupakan semua kau dan aku.."

and walk away..

the 6th

MONDAY
was like every other mondays i guess, mad with the lab partner bla bla
walk back home with Vale lalu Stirling Hwy, and was super tiring! luckily i let Daniel have the physics text book, phew!
and our stuff we bought at the garage sale last Sunday reached home. yeay!
and this is for Farah Azmeera (though i doubt u read my blog):

.the backyard.

besa kan!?

TUESDAY
i had never imagine i would go to uni with thongs...and i finally did.
anyway, everyone in uni does. how last time i thought it was an eyesore to see those toes sticking out, now it's a common sight haha

.eww!.

it rained again that day. guess it's almost autumn. rain's getting frequent.
and it stops just as i walk out of Ref. sigh. that simply means i can't escape today's cooking duty hah!
thought of cooking cheese spinach penne, but the ingredients are expensive. i'll save that for another day. i've to wait for the day IGA put a discount on cream cheese and goat cheese heee
i almost die walking up the hills at Princess Rd with bags of stuff i bought at IGA.
was the longest walk ever since i arrived perth!

WEDNESDAY
calculus test aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh! omg, now i realize how much dependent i was to my GC!
i finally got the time to rearrange the room furnitures (and bawak masuk the cupboard and bed yang dah lame been at our dining heh), whee!~

our (me and Fatin) room's new look!

.of beds, study tables, & cupboards.

thanks to the $20 & $30 beds and $10 cupboard, our room's the best place to be ^_^

THURSDAY
went to Innaloo right after class. confession of a shoppaholic was great but the ticket was expensive haha so that might be the 1st and the last time i'll be spending my money on that part of entertainment huhu it was like we booked the whole place as there were only the 3 of us, Fatin, Radhiah & me, and another 2 other movie-goers.
then Fatin drove me n my bike to Glen Parker; yeay finally got to repair my bike!

that nite, we went to the faculty of commerce graduation nite. was quite an inspiration as well.

"lagi 4 years, ayah and mama pulak datang celebrate this glorious nite with me, i promise u both"

.Winthrop Tower, UWA.

FRIDAY
almost die of starvation that afternoon haha thought of taking my bike at Glen Parker but we were late by 2 minutes and yes, bye-bye bike dearie~
that nite was Peen Yee & Chu Siang's house warming at Onslow St., Shenton Park.
had a great nite btw! hee thanx a lot yah u both!

.the girls.
owh fatin wasn't there, dia banyak kerje haha

.the guys.
which i tak kenal pon who haha only Hafiz in stripes

then Maggie slept over at our place that nite. and she take quite sometime walking around, going in and out the rooms, admiring our big house aha!

SATURDAY
stayed at home the whole day! owh n went to fetch my Indi 500 at the bike shop. whee!

SUNDAY
Radhiah, Fatin & me cycle to the river that evening and had a picnic over there. Fatin brought her frankfurters she bought at Kongs aha! and me with my dry Carbonara as i'm being considerate somebody's not taking milk! kacau je! haha

.the great evening.

pictures will be up on picasa yah!

weeks passed

too many things to say; and i can't seem to recall every detail of it, since it's been more than a month i've been here (i'm so not good at memorizing! hah!)

OK, so where should i begin? hmm...

1st week starting 8th Feb
we arrived on the evening of Sunday the 8th. the view of Perth from the flight window was nice, but i prefer Malaysia berganda-ganda more ^_^. we've more colours from above, i swear! i miss my home land, owh Malaysia~ haha we were picked-up by UWA's pick-up service that i arranged just the day before, thanx to Nicola for accepting my very late application form, cheers! aha!
so we reached Trinity College around 7pm and the driver gave discount for my mum. thank you. (btw, the driver was kinda good looking haha) the worse part of the day was we had to carry our huge luggage bags = 51kg up the stairs huh! and yes, it was Sunday, and u know Sunday, people don't work here, OK; angkatlah bag kau tu sendiri!
the next morning, we had breakfast at Trinity's cafeteria. the atmosphere was great, just like in movies. well, specifically, i imagine Twilight, again haha. plus, there was a guy who looks like the Emmett in the movie who make it even more Twilighty ahaha!
btw, books here are soo expensive! Twilight's like $29.99? and it's only RM35 in Malaysia. ah!
we went to uni that morning, and there it is, the building where i'll be spending most of my time in the future ^_^ - the Environmental System building!

.the environmentalist's aha!.

and so we spend the few days looking for accomodation, settle bank account at the city and stuff. owh and recharge my vodaphone prepaid, and one of the staffs looks like So Ji-seub!!
we moved to Kak Yan's house the night before 11th.
Monday the 11th was enrolment day and orientation for the internationals. days later was all about enrolment, class registration bla bla n house viewing. i remember running uphill at Stirling Hwy on Thursday 12th around 7.30pm just to be on time for the house viewing at 67 Stirling haha i'm gonna laugh to that everytime going along Stirling =P

*************then it was all BAD LUCK!**************
those days i've been wishing for something good to appear before me.
all those problems we (mama, fatin & me) faced about accommodation.
the days i wish to forget and not to be brought up again in the future.
********************************************************
and the people involved that i wish i wouldn't feel hatred;
i'm sorry, it's all in the pass now, i've forgotten almost everything.
u know stain stays even if u bleached it, i learn that in Chemistry last time ^_^

thanx a million to Kak Yan and Kak Fad,
the two people whom helped us a lot. we can't thank u both enough for everything.
sayang akak2 sekalian ^_^

2nd week starting 16th Feb
was O-week for all UWA 1st years. we went just on the 1st day and was kinda regret it haha. 1st day was super tiring! there was a treasure hunt but most of the time we were focused on catching-up with the group leader and a few probably local students at the front, than looking for the treasure haha. fyi, Malaysian walking pace is different from the locals yah. u know how hard it was to keep up with them, owh!

.keeping up!.

on the 17th, Timey, Radiah & Ana called; they found a house somewhere along Mountjoy Rd. so that marks the end of our house-hunting days, phew! we finally settled down in this huge old-style house at the top of the hill in Nedlands, and we're happy ^_^
Saturday, was 81 Mountjoy's house-warming and the were lotsa people, which mostly i don't know who they are ahahaha.

.busy.

the next day, Sunday, we all bought a 2nd-hand bike each at swap mart in Belmont. mine was an old model bike, Indi 500, and it really looks old like the grandmother of all the bikes at our house haha but i like it a lot.

.my Indi 500.

3rd week starting 23rd Feb
class commences,

.excited for 1st day.

and i'm the only one in tudung in all lectures. uni's fun but i love college more. i kinda miss the things we did back then. anyway i'm glad that Daniel, Jonathan & me have almost the same timetable. we worked soo hard for that in OLCR session during orientation, thank god! and there are Jono & Val and Adam as well. glad and ease.

.Jono.Val.Jonathan.Adam.

my mum went back to Malaysia on Wednesday and of all days it rained a lot on the day when i had no choice but to rush home in the rain to send mama to the airport. i'd never seen so much water falling off the clouds ever since i came. we sempat went for picnic the day before mama balik and it was lotsa fun.

.picnic @ Swan.

Kak Yan organize a BBQ at Matilda Bay for the 1st year malay girls. it was so that we know the seniors, and vice-versa. aim met, walla!

.BBQ-ing.

4th week starting 2nd March
haunted by lab on Monday; Lab partner was nice (and yeah cute) and i was dumb, the experiment kills because there're so many columns to fill in the figures and we didn't bring our calculators hah!
intro to mechanics is getting interesting~ and then my bike pancit, only a day later i realized it was actually bocor and not just pancit.
i find Thursdays physics lecture's the best haha i saw one once like the Edward Cullen in the movie wearing jumper with that same hair, siting a few seats away aaaaaahhh!!
on my way back from uni on Friday (after happily enquiring the bike shop for tyre change and it's only like $16), i was attacked by a guard dog (i think) in front of a house at Louise St. which if i'm not mistaken the house number is 12B and i'm soo gonna sue you! the stupid house owner left the gate open seluas-luasnya (that gajah pon boleh lalu OK) with a huge unleashed dog at the front lawn, and the dog doesn't even look cute for a pet! ....and i cried, haha i was soo shocked when the dog suddenly pounce on me alright. i felt bad hitting the ugly dog with my bag but i really don't want another scar on the face. luckily it wasn't some kind of rogwiller whateverthespellingis, or i swear i'll fly back to Subang that same evening!
we, the mountjoys, went to Didi, Alin, Z's crib house-warming on Saturday at Victoria St., Bentley. then we went to Fairuz & Shu's place at Cook St. for no special occasion aha!

.at Bentley.

that nite, Fatin & me went to Sommerville with Kak Yan and some other akaks. Perth Festival's still going on, and the week's movie was Buddha Collapse Out of Shame. was quite a sad movie and really symbolic, it did take some time to be digested and understood. and some are just left unanswered.

.Sommerville theater, UWA.

5th week starting 9th March
i started to hate physics lab a lot and that comes in a package with my lab partner. i'm gonna peel that label "nice" off him (but he's cute anyway haha my housemates do agree with me, so don't worry about me having sight problems! owh and i just realized that i didn't even know what his name was. was it Ben or something?).
we got our internet connection on Tuesday whee~ well that was after a few very loooooong (expensive as well!!) phone calls to Telstra; talking to the machine, a worthless trip to the city; just to know that we need the lease agreement to apply a phone line and we didn't bring that along, and went to the wrong building; WestNet Infrastructure instead of the internet provider WestNet, last week and the week before.
well, on friday evening, we attended Hazman's farewell BBQ at Mill Point, East Perth.

.overlooking the Perth city.

.halaqah ^_^.

on Saturday, Kodok, Amirul, and K (3rd year medic seniors which i just known on that day, except for Kodok, known him back in KUSESS) hold a house-warming at their new house, 59 Fairway. only Fatin & i went, others are probably too tired after waking up very early in the morning to catch-up fresh seafood at Canning Vale with Kak Yan.

.Nedlanders.

.the atmosphere.

owh yeah after 59 Fairway, Fatin & me followed Kak Yan and Kak Alya to the new Coles in Claremont and we were like 'whoa besar (probably the largest seen in 1km radius from our house), dekat dengan Mountjoy, boleh cycle aje!'
later that day, around 6pm, Kak Ti and her husband came to repair my bike tyre.

.teruja!.

whee~ Indi 500 is back on its wheels! thanx to Kak Ti and family, u guys helped a lot!
then on Sunday morning, the whole house took a ride to Selby St., Shenton Park, for a massive garrage sale~ and so i bought a cupboard and a bed at $40 hee

.probably my Indi 500's uncle.
saw it at the garage sale~

in the evening, Kak Yan, Fatin, Radhiah, & me went to Kak Didi's house in Mosman Park, where we met Syifa's brother, Talha ^_^ and had fun!~

.Syifa'.

.Talha.

more photos and descriptions: Picasa

1st ever posted from Mountjoy aha!

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photos along the month of February up to today
has been uploaded yeah!

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internet's here..owh finally!!
thanx to WestNet for hurrying the internet connection application process. wekk!!